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"I Always Knew" by Spencer Bennett

Here is a poem I wrote centered around a Latinx queer teenager who is coming to terms with their sexuality and identity while figuring out how to move forward. I drew from my own personal experiences, as well as the different issues we discussed this semester.

“I always knew I was different

Not really sure what to make of it

Boys were never just friends

And girls just never got me going

You’d think that once you figure this out

That all your problems will fade away

Like a deep cleanse of your soul

But it only breeds more uncertainty

How will I tell my family?

Should I tell my family?

Silence is like living two lives

But silence is all I’ve ever known

I feel like I am deceiving those closest to me

Like I am a stranger and they don’t even know it

My grandparents always ask me, “y tu novia?

And I have to say I haven’t met the right one

Knowing that the answer will never change

I always knew I was different

But I never knew how badly I’d want to be the same”

-Spencer Bennett <3